Machine generated contents note: [I drove all the way to Cape Disappointment] --
[The problem with sweetness is death] --
[Intimacy unhinged, unpaddocked me] --
[I met a man a dying man] --
[It is abominable, unquenchable by touch] --
[Sometimes I can't feel it] --
[I could do it. I could walk into the sea] --
[Press a foot into this beach] --
[The best is when you respond] --
[From this bench I like to call my bench] --
[Poetry, the only father, landscape] --
[To return from Paradise] --
[What is it you feel, I asked Kurt] --
[Listening to "Summertime"] --
[There is a certain state of grace] --
["No need to sparkle"] --
[Since age three, I went looking] --
[Who wants to be soft? I don't] --
[I was raised in a rectangle] --
[I was not a large child] --
[Freak accidents do happen] --
[My first crush was Wild Bill Hickok] --
[They lived next door, four boys] --
[I suck so many cough drops] --
[I floated I flew I fell to Earth] --
[That bar, World of the Satisfyin' Place] --
[Labels now slip off me like clothes] --
[All at once David went catatonic] --
[I want drugs again; whimsy] --
[His body was barely cold] --
[The lambs this year are dumb] --
[One's got an eye thing] --
[When the lamb humped her leg] --
[After the pigs and lambs and rabbits] --
[The parents tried to build a little Eden] --
[The fat suffering of the farrowing sow] --
[The patriarch of Jesus Camp is dead] --
[It was a land without charm] --
[The White Rabbit was before] --
[They wander in, two Southdowns] --
[He came to us all the way down here with us] --
[For a couple years, I slept nights] --
[Once, I took a Greyhound north] --
[I have slept in many places] --
[My first night in New York] --
[I'm watching yl Face in the Crowd] --
[I can't rest, can't get no relief] --
[I should have been in cinema] --
[Parties among strangers] --
[There's something to be said for having] --
[Margaret Sanger did the first one] --
[I saw Robert Creeley] --
[The famous poets came for us] --
[Yes, I saw them all, saw them, met some] --
[I can't say I loved punk] --
[Thirty-nine years ago is nothing] --
[We all have our trauma nadir] --
[I aborted two daughters] --
[I fell on an incline, talus, tibia] --
[There is a force that breaks the body] --
[It's that time of spring] --
[OD'd on his Suboxone] --
[I hoisted them, two drug dealers] --
[Freelance artist. That's what you say] --
[How do you stand being so virtuous] --
[Where is the drug to drug] --
[Then, I account it high time to get to sea] --
[Which, he asks me, is your favorite story] --
[She's a big James Stewart fan] --
[Why would God be so mean, he asks] --
[What do you think Elvis's best song was] --
[On what day do you think Jesus] --
[I've lived with death from the beginning] --
[I fell in love with death] --
[I've encountered the exoskeleton] --
[All lives have their tropes] --
[In the dream, my mother called my name] --
[I dreamed of it again, my dad's body] --
[I dreamed I had to find my way] --
[Goldenrod, I could say, you know] --
[How will I leave this life, like I left my job] --
[I dreamed a color, no plot, a color] --
[He called from San Francisco] --
[I want to zero in on what he looked like] --
[He said it bummed him out his dick] --
[I saw a little movie of a person stroking] --
[Things feel partial. My love for things is partial] --
[Death does not exist in poetry] --
[I was tethered to this Earth] --
[Abrupt lines on the nature of beauty] --
[Literature is dangerous business] --
[I wanted to be the boy in the book] --
[My literary tastes of late are manic] --
[Chekhov sits waiting for me] --
[Either all of this is an apparition or I am] --
[Mountains black today, hiding] --
[For twenty-six days I lived] --
[When I am away J miss] --
[It's a real Garden of Eden story] --
[And then landscape was all there was] --
[The emergent self is not a self that loves] --
[Takes time to get to minimalism] --
[All things now remind me] --
[Those days, if I consider them] --
[The world today is wet] --
[The small stuff, the care] --
[I can't see her clearly] --
[It won't kill me to be sad again] --
[I wish I still smoked] --
[The sonnet, like poverty] --
[My favorite scent is my own funk] --
[You know what living means] --
[Lately I've been feeling about poetry] --
[Ever since Elise brought up] --
[My private parts are many] --
[Back then its hair was Cleopatraed] --
[To say that I'm a witch] --
[For me it's going to be] --
[I courted her, that musky tart] --
[I hope when it happens].